LGBTQ+ has been a controversial topic worldwide ever since the last century until today. People are scared to accept their true identify and being honest with themselves just because they’re scared of discriminations. In 2017, I took a risk. I challenged myself to talk about this controversial topic on the stage of TEDxISPP 2017 under the theme of ‘Creating a Hopeful Future’. My goal was (will always be) to spread the awareness and knowledge about people’s sexual orientation and that there are no limitations in how someone identify themselves.
A Halloween Short Story
31. 10. 2017
Reality From Nightmare
As I carefully entered the haunted house, the door shut behind me and I got this spine-chilling feeling all over my body. I saw a flash of light blinks about 2-meters away from where I am standing. Blop! The light disappears with a soft sound. I closed my eyes, raised both of my hands up trying to grab what’s in front of me. I touch something rough! Something stringy! It felt like someone’s hair. It was moving! I screamed terrifyingly. Then suddenly I shut up for a second to examine the environment I was in. I could feel a drop of water slipped through my shoulder. Then I smelled something wicked! I didn’t know what to expect. The house was genuinely dark. I can’t even see lights that are supposed to shine through the shiny glass. As I was staring hard at what’s in my hands the lights just came back on and it was a clown! “MOM!” I screamed horribly! I sprint as hard as I could to get away from the clown to get a bat I was ahead of me. All of a sudden, my legs froze. I can’t lift both of my lefts. It was trapped from the greasy hands of the clown. The clown started to drag me further and further away from my destination until the clown met its enemy. The clown’s enemy was a man, a handsome one. I couldn’t believe why. He flung a bat and hit the clown on its head. The clowned receded its way back underground. The man handed me his hand and whispered, “I am here for you! I am here to help you.” I hand over my hands to him slowly. As soon as it gets 5-cm as close to his hands he grabbed me and pulled a knife from his belt and stabbed me in the stomach. I woke up! There were sweats and tears, but now blood. But as soon as I looked straight to the door of my room I saw a silhouette of someone standing there. That object was moving! Closer it comes. And it was a ghost! I woke up! I looked up at the ceiling And then I can feel someone dragging me again. I remembered setting an alarm at 12:00am so that I can scare my family. I was dragged and the alarm started to alarm. I screamed for help but no one heard me. My legs were being chopped off. And the last thing I remember was the face of that murderer fades until I blanked out. I was living in my nightmare.
I felt trapped within myself. It wasn’t easy pretending, and it was even harder to accept a shocking truth that I was too scared to admit. My life was a mess! Continue reading “The Courage That Lies Within Us”
September 29th, Startup Weekend was held in Phnom Penh. This is a competition where people come together to create small teams to develop a feasible business and pitch them to the judges. Educational Trainer, Professors, College students, and me (a high school student) attended the event. Continue reading “Startup Weekend 2017 Phnom Penh”
I was born in a place where we have our own language. I know I’ve been influenced by international curriculum, but of course, I won’t forget my nationality and my identity. Khmer is Cambodian language. Continue reading “Khmer Class”
This year in Literacy Class I was working on a writing project (paper) that is called Coming Of Age Narrative Essay. Down below is my story. Continue reading “Literacy – Coming Of Age Narrative Essay”
This year in Physics class I have a new teacher. It’s a fascinating experience to Continue reading “Physics – Kinematics and Static Equilibrium”
AP Statistics is a college-level high school statistics course offered in the United States through the College Board’s Advanced Placement program1. This year a group of Liger students (23 in total) is challenging themselves to take this college-level course with an intention of also taking the test for college credit. By taking this course I’ve definitely developed different methods to learn effectively independently since I spent a lot of time outside of school learning the math terms and concepts.
January 25th 2017 a few of my classmates and I went to S21 also known as a place for Khmer Rouge to keep, torture victims and gather information. As soon as I get out of the school van I can feel the chills. I can see a few beds (that victims use to sleep there) inside through a very dark window. I thought that I could never do this, that I couldn’t go inside because it was so touching. But I did it, I thought that if I couldn’t do it I wouldn’t have write this, it’s like I just waste an amazing opportunity to learn about something that is very extreme. And am glad I did it anyways.
I choose to do the audio tour there. I’m am so delightful that I choose it over a tour guide, even though with tour guides I can ask as many questions as possible, but in this case I wouldn’t find tour guide helpful at all because to me it is just a distraction. When I am listening to the audio I can feel the author, it’s like I’m living in the world. And what’s even creepier is that I feel that I was one of the victim!
For me It was so surprising to know that only 7 people survived from that big environment. I feel really heartbroken for every victims that were killed there especially the 14 people that was the last to die in S21 because they were found laid on the bed (that I mentioned about earlier) after the genocide ends. It is even worst to know that there were so many ways that the Khmer Rouge killed people there.
Khmer Rouge’s goal was not to kill everyone but their goal was to abuse everyone so that they will give them answers about people who might betray Khmer Rouge.
Back to the audio – so I was sitting outside under this big tree and in front of me there were two big buildings. I saw several visitors walked in there and I wonder what can possibly be in there (well I mean I saw it through the window on the first floor but I don’t know what’s inside in every room or every floor.) So as soon as I reached audio number 4 I was standing in front of building A. I walked slowly and was very concentrate. The first image that jumped into my eyes were the stain blood on the floor and the picture that was hanging on the wall. It was the picture of the victim that was seen dead after the genocide. In every single room that I went in I feel something, and I feel that the feeling is getting stronger. On the second floor of building A there weren’t many things to look at except the open place in rooms with pictures hanging and blood stain. Even though there weren’t many things that is going on in that building I still feel very terrified, but luckily I went up there along with 2 other friends.
Directly after that building I saw a huge and tall wooden pillar that was known to be one of the places that Khmer Rouge used to punish the victims by tying their hands together and pull them up (Ugh!! Just to think and write about it I feel so uncomfortable already). In front of that there’s a pot of feces water that the Khmer Rouge soldier us to put the victim in so that they would wake up from their unconsciousness.
At building B I observe that there were wires fenced around the building by the Khmer Rouge soldiers, that was because some victims choose not to answer the Khmer Rouge’s questions and rather suicide. Inside this building I can imagine a lot more visual because there are paintings and pictures, especially those who died and those who are the leader of Khmer Rouge.
There are so many more things that I’ve seen and goes through, one of the thing that jumped up to my mind the most was how Khmer Rouge soldiers torture people with variety of violence activities such as, hang them on pot of water, putting venomous animals on the victim’s body, whip them with wires and even crash them with the wall.
This trip is definitely so emotional and touching for me. I really do want the next generation to learn about Khmer Rouge and especially I want them to visit the S21 one of the horrifying place to keep all the victims. All Cambodians should learn about this because we need to avoid this from happening in the future. We want to develop our country in a way that is logical and very effective and not violence.
*Pictures will be posted in a few days*